My Patience – A Poem Written December 23, 2009, by Leen Jaber
I know you.
I know you from the inside.
You know me from the inside.
You’re kind and patient.
Your touch inspires me.
Your love welcomes me.
It humbles me.
You deserve me.
I didn’t think I deserved you.
But I do. I really do.
You’re not a catalyst for negative change.
You’re not mean.
You’re not abusive.
You don’t refuse me.
You embrace me with mercy and comfort.
You’ve given me everything I’ve ever asked for, and more.
And, God, your kisses.
Your kisses take me to places that rival heaven.
I bore you two children.
And you cure my boredom.
You’re so gentle with your words, with your stare.
You made me forget the monster who changed my hope to gloom
And my innocence into something even Satan shies away from.
I found true happiness in your vows.
In your bed.
In your prayers.
When you trace your finger down my shoulder,
You speak to me without a word.
And I speak back.
And you understand.
Every clumsy thought.
I have no fear of the future without you.
You would die for me.
And I’d for you.
You don’t condescend my abilities.
You don’t push me away.
You respond to my requests.
You take care of me.
A four letter word could never describe how you feel about me.
“LOVE” is for children, not for us.
What we have is too rare to have ever been given a name.
No one but us has ever felt it.
You can take me anywhere.
You can lay next to me for all eternity.
And then teach me that tears aren’t only for crying.
I’ve been christened in your glow,
And have been reborn into a world that isn’t bad.
Thank you my love.
Thank you God for bringing my protector to me.
The 12 hours that has passed since I’ve seen him,
Haven’t allowed me to lose the impact of his warmth.
He’s the reality that will eventually perpetuate itself into my world.
That day is why I’m patient.
And God is with those who are patient.